I'm back... kinda...

So yes I know its been forever! But sadly my old computer has been laid to rest :( it was DOA after my last post.

Of course now that I have all this time (ha ha) since I've been staying home and so much to blog about! And no way to get it all out! Ugh!!! My hands have just been itching to type, so I'm going to try this with my thumbs.

So here goes a small list of projects I've been up to- painting the girls bedrooms and bathroom, as well as my bathroom! Yay! (Pics will be posted as soon as I'm finished :))

I've also decided I can no longer accept my Lovie's organizational skills in our attic. Boxes and things place where ever how ever. No my OCD is on over drive!

We did get our tree up and our lights on the outside... And against my suggestion Lovie decided to staple them instead of using the handy little clips that I bought for them... So now we DO have lights up, but they don't light up :) he saw that 'I told you so' coming Ha!

We have also had a tiny addition to our little family! Lovie got me a little shihpoo I named Abigail! I just love her!!! She is the sweetest little thing ever. The girls love her too. I never thought I would ever be one of those people who dresses their puppy but here it goes - My name is Terra and I love to dress my lil pookie baby poo in adorable little outfits and take her everywhere with me!
OMG yes before you say or think it I realize that she is my surrogate baby :) and there should probably be meetings for people like me!

Well I'm off to finish painting!

Praise the LORD!!!

We WON! We were awarded SOLE custody of the girls!!!! I'll update more later!!! Sorry I have to go celebrate with my little ones!!!

My little angels...

These are all of our little angels... we are praying that today the Judge will keep our family together... all of our angels together.

So please keep us in your thoughts and prayers today... it has been a very trying week but we have faith in Jesus and we are placing it all in His very capable hands.


Isaiah 41:1010-
Don’t you be afraid, for I am with you. Don’t be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you. Yes, I will help you. Yes, I will uphold you with the right hand of my righteousness.

Heaven Bound Hero...

So, I'm not even sure how to start this blog entry... There are so many words I want to say and they all keep getting jumbled in my mind. So let me just start with the beginning...

My daddy passed away when I was only two, and the man that I have always looked up to in so many ways is and always will is my Grandaddy.

He drove my mother and I home from the hospital after my birth, some 29 years ago... He taught me how to blow into my straw at Happy Burger Drive-in to make it sound like a flute... I used to sit on his lap and watch TV drinking my tea and trying to keep him from spitting in it!... He would tease me relentlessly about my preschool boyfriend who I broke up with because he "fawded" at nap time... He took me fishing for the first time when I was four and had to catch the pole before it went into the pond after a fish had nibbled... He would take me to feed the cows and ride Dick the little Shetland pony my grandparents had... I would drink my little mug of coffee milk with him in the mornings and sit on the porch of the same house I came home to after my birth... I would always beg to ride with him in his yellow Jeep and was never allowed to because it didn't have doors... He was there to watch me at my ballet recitals... I loved going with Mom to take his lunch to him when I stayed the summers... He was there to watch me graduate from Basic Training for the Army, to tell me how proud of me he was... He was there my senior year when I thought I was grown up enough but wasn't... He listened to me gush and sometimes whine about boys and even drove me to dances and dates... He taught me how to drive and even allowed me to drive part of the way to the house in Sea Drift, TX (talk about brave!)... I used to hang out at the funeral home with him and ride in the limos and occasionally a hearse... He was there the day I got married and there for me when the marriage ended... He was there the day my first daughter was born... And he was there for Jordan to ask him and my grandmother for their blessings before he proposed to me... and he was there for everything else important in between.

He is and always will be my best friend, my hero. And I will forever be his shadow.

He has suffered with cancer for the last few years. He has been so strong, a strength that I hope I have inherited. But the time has come for us all to say our good-byes... even though I know it's not a forever good-bye it doesn't hurt any less. I'm selfish, I want him forever...

In a way I'm thankful that I've had this time to spend with him to slowly let him go. The Lord works in mysterious ways. After loosing a parent so young I know about loss. It doesn't make it hurt any less or prepare you any more... But I am finding the inner strength to let him go be with the Lord, and my daddy and all of the other loved ones who have proceeded us...

My heart breaks not only for myself, but for my grandmother. Mom, as all of her grandchildren know her as, has been a rock. She hasn't stood by and watched, she has been in the pits and trenches of all of this with him. She has been a devoted loving wife for over 50 years. She has cared for him with such love and devotion that it breaks my heart to see her have to go through this. I am hurting for my own reasons yet hers are so much deeper.

I watch her with him and know that one day this could be me tending to Jordan. And I am able to feel her pain on a level that could swallow me.

Please keep us in your prayers. While I am selfish I don't want him to suffer. I want him to be at peace and I know he will be waiting for all of us one day with open arms when we can all be together again.


Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in me. In my Father's house are many rooms; if it were not so, I would have told you. I am going there to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am. You know the way to the place where I am going. John 14:1-4

So will it be with the resurrection of the dead. The body that is sown is perishable, it is raised imperishable; it is sown in dishonor, it is raised in glory; it is sown in weakness, it is raised in power; it is sown a natural body, it is raised a spiritual body. If there is a natural body, there is also a spiritual body.1 Corinthians 15:42-44

No more 9 to 5...

So I did it! I put in my two weeks! I'm so going to miss all of my friends at work, but it will be so much easier (and cheaper) for me to stay at home!

I was a little afraid that my boss was going to bar the doors and never let me leave, but he "said" he understood... lol

So now I have to train my replacement... it's so weird to think I won't be driving here in just a few short weeks...

Well I'm off to my second (non-paying but SOOOO worth it) job! HA!

xoxo

OH fall! How I loooooove thee!

So I can't really tell you what it is about fall that I love so much! Is it the crisp clean air? Or the color of the trees? Or the really awesome frizz free hair days? Yeah it's probably that last one!

I know a lot of people would love to live on a sunny warm beach year around, but if I could bottle up fall weather and keep it year around it would be like Heaven! I love the warm colors all the wonderful smells! I bought my first fall candle this weekend and have it on my warmer at home! I just love coming through the front door and smelling the pumpkin and spice!

The girls have all but decided exactly what they want to be for Halloween... they keep switching back and forth back and forth at a dizzying pace! I told them yesterday they need to put the for sures on it already so I can get to sewing!

This isn't "our" Halloween this year :( but I still want to do all the fun stuff with them anyway! Plus I'm sure that Torrie and Maryiah's costumes will fall on us anyway since Ex-BM (you can think BOTH meanings on this one...) still hasn't said anything about even taking them Trick-or-Treating...

We also have Lil Miss Joycie's fifth birthday to plan!!!! We are going to have a costume party this year!!! (Anther reason on the rush for the costumes!) We are going to have all kinds of games, like putting your hand in different boxes trying to guess the gross stuff inside! YAY! Best Costume and making Carmel apples to name a few! I'm so stoked for this! I swear I wish we had birthday parties every month!- Oh wait! We kinda do! Ha!

Another fun fall thing is the fair!!! I HEART the fair! I love eating my way (and weight) through the fairways... and then rolling all the way home! I'm hoping that everything works out to where we can take all the girls! Last year it rained on the day we had planned to go and six wet whinny wittle ones is no fun! So I'm hoping this year everything works out! Of course it's gonna cost an arm and a leg just to get us all in there! And I hope everyone is well rested cause we are going to get our moneys worth! :)

Happy Fall to All!

XOXO

Another week another $3?!?!

So Lovie and I started looking at our finances... which I do all the time since I'm the bill payer in the house, a.k.a The Banker, but we wanted to look at our debit to income ratio and low and behold after daycare, my land payment and gas to get to work I bring home an estimated $3.00 a week... yes, that was not a typo let me spell it out for you THREE DOLLARS A WEEK, which it $12 dollars a month... WOW! So rich! :)
So we've deiced to sell the land (know anyone who might be interested???) and I'm going to stay home! YAY! It just seems so moronic for us to pay a thousand dollars a month for someone else to watch our children! I know that seems cheap for six, but trust me when you have parents who don't pay support like they are court ordered to do, it is NOT an easy feat! Some people seem to forget that you also must FEED your children!
Also another issue we have run into is sick days... When you have one or two children sick days can often take a toll on your income, but let's multiply that by six. Because you know illness is like a domino affect in a home with children. Maybe one will end up with a little tummy bug and by the following week everyone around them is dropping like flies! And by the time I get it my sick days are way long gone!
So we have been praying about the whole situation and we are hoping to be able to make this life change by the end of the year! I haven't been a stay at home in about 7 years so it will be a big change for me! I'm a very social person and will probably end up talking lil Katie Bug's ears off all day long! Or calling all my besties and bugging them every second!
But I am so excited to be able to get ready to go back to school! I'm hoping to be able to have more time to apply for scholarships and grants! By next fall Joycie will be in Kindergarten and Katie will be ready for Pre-K!
So keep us in your prayers!
xoxo