Praise the LORD!!!

We WON! We were awarded SOLE custody of the girls!!!! I'll update more later!!! Sorry I have to go celebrate with my little ones!!!

My little angels...

These are all of our little angels... we are praying that today the Judge will keep our family together... all of our angels together.

So please keep us in your thoughts and prayers today... it has been a very trying week but we have faith in Jesus and we are placing it all in His very capable hands.


Isaiah 41:1010-
Don’t you be afraid, for I am with you. Don’t be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you. Yes, I will help you. Yes, I will uphold you with the right hand of my righteousness.

Heaven Bound Hero...

So, I'm not even sure how to start this blog entry... There are so many words I want to say and they all keep getting jumbled in my mind. So let me just start with the beginning...

My daddy passed away when I was only two, and the man that I have always looked up to in so many ways is and always will is my Grandaddy.

He drove my mother and I home from the hospital after my birth, some 29 years ago... He taught me how to blow into my straw at Happy Burger Drive-in to make it sound like a flute... I used to sit on his lap and watch TV drinking my tea and trying to keep him from spitting in it!... He would tease me relentlessly about my preschool boyfriend who I broke up with because he "fawded" at nap time... He took me fishing for the first time when I was four and had to catch the pole before it went into the pond after a fish had nibbled... He would take me to feed the cows and ride Dick the little Shetland pony my grandparents had... I would drink my little mug of coffee milk with him in the mornings and sit on the porch of the same house I came home to after my birth... I would always beg to ride with him in his yellow Jeep and was never allowed to because it didn't have doors... He was there to watch me at my ballet recitals... I loved going with Mom to take his lunch to him when I stayed the summers... He was there to watch me graduate from Basic Training for the Army, to tell me how proud of me he was... He was there my senior year when I thought I was grown up enough but wasn't... He listened to me gush and sometimes whine about boys and even drove me to dances and dates... He taught me how to drive and even allowed me to drive part of the way to the house in Sea Drift, TX (talk about brave!)... I used to hang out at the funeral home with him and ride in the limos and occasionally a hearse... He was there the day I got married and there for me when the marriage ended... He was there the day my first daughter was born... And he was there for Jordan to ask him and my grandmother for their blessings before he proposed to me... and he was there for everything else important in between.

He is and always will be my best friend, my hero. And I will forever be his shadow.

He has suffered with cancer for the last few years. He has been so strong, a strength that I hope I have inherited. But the time has come for us all to say our good-byes... even though I know it's not a forever good-bye it doesn't hurt any less. I'm selfish, I want him forever...

In a way I'm thankful that I've had this time to spend with him to slowly let him go. The Lord works in mysterious ways. After loosing a parent so young I know about loss. It doesn't make it hurt any less or prepare you any more... But I am finding the inner strength to let him go be with the Lord, and my daddy and all of the other loved ones who have proceeded us...

My heart breaks not only for myself, but for my grandmother. Mom, as all of her grandchildren know her as, has been a rock. She hasn't stood by and watched, she has been in the pits and trenches of all of this with him. She has been a devoted loving wife for over 50 years. She has cared for him with such love and devotion that it breaks my heart to see her have to go through this. I am hurting for my own reasons yet hers are so much deeper.

I watch her with him and know that one day this could be me tending to Jordan. And I am able to feel her pain on a level that could swallow me.

Please keep us in your prayers. While I am selfish I don't want him to suffer. I want him to be at peace and I know he will be waiting for all of us one day with open arms when we can all be together again.


Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in me. In my Father's house are many rooms; if it were not so, I would have told you. I am going there to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am. You know the way to the place where I am going. John 14:1-4

So will it be with the resurrection of the dead. The body that is sown is perishable, it is raised imperishable; it is sown in dishonor, it is raised in glory; it is sown in weakness, it is raised in power; it is sown a natural body, it is raised a spiritual body. If there is a natural body, there is also a spiritual body.1 Corinthians 15:42-44